mulderfan is back!

WHY you might ask? A few months ago, after no direct contact for almost three glorious, drama-free years, I received a heart rending "call back message" from my NF, and made the HUGE mistake of being hoovered back down the Rabbit Hole into
my NFOO's version of Crazyland.

So, here I am back in the blog business, not as a shining example but, as a dire warning to ACONs who allow their compassion and decency to lead them where no *sane person would ever go. Within a few short months I had resumed my role as family caretaker and inevitably,
my NF's favourite punching bag.

#1 emotion right now is ANGER!
The anger is not directed toward the, ever predictable, narcissists in my life but at **myself for being so fucking stupid. "Follow your instincts", "respond don't react", and all the other catch-phrases that might have stopped me, went right out the window in my haste to
"do the right thing".

At first, my parents praised me as a wonderful daughter, while seeking my help and sucking me further into Crazyland. By the time I began to realize the old patterns were re-emerging, a genuine crisis involving EM began to unfold and, even though my gut was telling me to run like hell, the decent human being in me could see NO WAY OUT.

Re-enter the NGC (whose super power is disappearing whenever there's a crisis), crawling out from under his rock, just as most of the "heavy lifting" had been done. He wasted no time in planting a hateful lie in the fertile manure of my aging NF's demented and paranoid mind. The NGC's malicious ploy triggered a narcissistic rage of epic proportions, that surpassed any abuse I had previously endured from my NF and THAT is what set me free!

FUCK 'EM!

*Definition of Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
(attributed to Einstein, Ben Franklin, Mark Twain...)

**Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me! ~anon

To be continued...